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Saturday was a pretty all over the place kinda day.

That was partly because, despite agreeing to take the weekend off, mum tried to do all the things. Seriously if I took my eyes off her for longer than a second she was doing something else, despite saying she wasn’t. It’s not surprise then that, once we’d had lunch, she promptly fell asleep.

When she did I went up and watched Shoto’s art stream, which turned out to be so pretty!

I also had a mystery package come in the morning, which turned out to be a cute axolotl friend from

fadefur and they came with cute stickers!

I’d also had tumblr notifications from new followers, which weren’t the usual spam followers. I wasn’t sure why, since I don’t use tumblr that much (though I did do a post Friday saying I should use it more). It seems that someone made an anti-waycest/proship blocklist and put me on there despite me being painfully inactive there in general and not posting waycest in forever. Ugh it exhausted me how nonsensical fandoms (and bandom in this case) is (no wonder I don’t bother with it). But at least all I’ve to from it is two followers and no harassment.

Saturday night was the last night of the proms and… it wasn’t too memorable. All I remember is that there were EU flags waving at one point. I’m not sure if it’s because it just wasn’t memorable in general or because we had a little bottle of booze and it just… wiped me.

At least I had the focus to read

carrythefire’s awesome fic before completely zoning out. Though I had hoped to do more but the booze just wiped me out.

Sunday I woke and felt so rough. I’m not sure if it was from the stress, the weather (it’s too hot) or the booze from the night before but it was ugh. Thankfully it settled over the course of the day, but it was still so ugh for that morning.

Thankfully I felt oki enough after food to do Dungeons and dodongos which had me laughing so much. It was amusing how we all saw Louise (the pubs cat) and, like live, we all wanted to pet the kitty. And then we went out into the desert, which just made me wonder how gerudo were meant to cross that sand river in universe (maybe they all have hookshots and hover boots?) but we somehow managed to get across and through the desert (thanks to Pom having skills!) and the great fairy there was all good which is a relief.

I’d hoped to fic more but my focus was off which was annoying. I think all I managed was a few lines if that.

Ranboo’s rebrand was yesterday and I’d been a little nervous cause my anxious ass does not like change (im glad he made a tweet the other day about that) but it didn’t trigger that which was good. His whole new thing gives Shoto vibes (the vtuber model, having a throwing effect, the starting and ending screens) and it seems likely they’ll do something together which is wild. They also implied streams would start having a more mature rating at times which feels good too.

I ended up after that putting on Resident Evil: Death Island. I’d been looking forward to it for awhile but anytime I intended to watch something came up. After watching it though it felt kinda… eh. Which is a shame because it has Leon (and the end monster was tentacly). It just felt eh overall, even though it started promising.

I think it’s partly due to the villain. You have a character that could be interesting, because he’s doing all of this because of having to kill his friend who got infected with the t-virus in Racoon city. He makes his own variant with a delivery system that can target specific people. He sees specific people and systems as responsible for the viruses and outbreaks that have happened in universe. So what does he intend to do? Release the virus and cause a general outbreak, instead of targeting the people he sees responsible despite making something that can specifically target people it’s just… what??

I was gonna add the weeks plans, but I might add them to whatever post I do next. As for today I might fic, fo on Starfield and then (hopefully) watch Saw VI after Ranboo’s stream

Current Mood: thoughtful
Current Music: Set It Off - Forever Stuck In Our Youth

Another post that’s, again, a bit more random stream of conscious type beat.

I’m glad I watched the Pokémon stream on Thursday. Ie pelted it to be just finishing the Kalos Pokémon league arc, which was true for the opening eps but then it shifted in such a surprising way. Pretty much as soon as the last battle finished Team Flare went into action and caused chaos. It was honestly so exciting and even after 4 eps it wasn’t resolved so I’m eager to see what’s going to happen with that. And everyone was doing their own thing, even Team Rocket got involved against them which was so cool (and Steven for some reason and Hesse is right he is dreamy).

I’ve managed to get back on Tears Of The Kingdom buy it’s not been doing anything major. It’s mostly been just exploring thoughI did stumble on some clothing and did some shrines. I warped to Kakariko to explore there when I next go on it. (I saw someone bought up on twitter that they should have added the well from OOT or the shadow temple, which would’ve been cool and spooky)

Also gaming I’ve been doing Ghost Trick but not much. I’ve only been doing one chapter at a time which isn’t too fast, but they’re so clever and can be tricky already (I just did the 4th last night). I did wonder if I have missed things by not following on some of the traces, but we’ll see.

(Though I’ve not been great at going on star rail or genshin impact because it’s felt I’ve not had the time)

I finished the UNIT audio boxset today (I might listen to the behind the scenes stuff later) and it really did turn out to be better than I expected. When I first saw it was an Auton boxset I didn’t think it’d be too great but they actually made it work really well and had such clever ideas (like I mentioned in the last post). I might listen to one of the other box sets this week. There isn’t another UNIT one alas, but there is Tales Of New Earth and a 10th Doctor one.

The weekend has been kinda tiring. I dunno if it’s because of the sudden change in weather or it’s residual stuff from being sick (or just mental stuff) but I’ve been so drained and so inside my own head which isn’t ideal.

My friend linked me to a bandom prompt memethe other day and it’s nice that there’s one going and it’s waycest friendly. None of the prompts sparked anything in me (probably thankfully) but after some pondering I did leave one.

But it also got into my head a bit because… I do miss bandom stuff, but I also don’t miss it. And it unintentionally bought back a bunch of stuff and made me feel bleh.

I think it hasn’t helped that I’ve been in my head a lot about fic in general, which I think has contributed to how bad I’ve been at ficcing. I’ll get what I think is a good idea, start working on it, then stall either because I get stuck or I talk myself out of it or… whatever. I dunno, maybe I should just… stop trying. A few days ago I had similar thoughts and it ended in me locking the season of kink post which I’ve thought about just… not even trying.

Bleh. Maybe I’ll change my mind soon but I’m not sure. We’ll see.

I had intended to watch a film last night. I’d seen that there was the latest Paranormal Activity on film4 and I was gonna catch it. I grabbed Doritos, put the digi box on the channel (so I could rewind if I missed the start) but I just went so tired and knew I wouldn’t have the focus. Which sucks but maybe it’ll be on the 4 player to watch another time. But I dunno, we’ll see if I’m in the mindset for it.

I woke this morning to a dm on discord and I won an Xbox code for something called Jelly Brawl so I might download and check it out later. Though we’ll see what my headspace/energy is like. There’s no real plans for today, other than A Year On Planet Earth tonight and maybe the proms (and maybe a Poirot in a bit)

I’m sure I had something else on my mind but it’s gone now, ah well.

This coming week there’s not many concrete plans but there are a few things. Shoto has a long birthday stream tomorrow, there’s the two Pokémon ones (though I suspect only one will be finishing the Kalos arc), mum’s friend is coming Thursday and there’s the next dungeons and dodongos. And there’s new Futurama and Hello Kitty Island Adventure, yay!

Other things I wanna try and do:
*More Zelda
*More Ghost Trick
*Watch something on Shudder
*Read the graphic novel and comics that have been sitting there for ages
*Make decisions on Xbox and who audio sale things
*Maybe do other June something

Current Mood: thoughtful
Current Music: Sunday Brunch

I’ve went back and forth on making a post on the general vibes of the past days, before settling on making one now (along with thoughts on something else). There’ll be another post on more positive things sometime tomorrow.

So first depression related vibes

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I will say after all that I’ve largely felt evened out today, with the only bad thoughts being related to… well.

Also in a recent post I mentioned I had a new follower on twitter and I was suspicious of them. However because I was in a bad mental space I was neither willing to trust and act on those instincts (by blocking or soft blocking them) nor disregarding them and engaging them in good faith (by taking them to be a potential friend/follower).

After that post I did find out that I have followed them on tumblr, which is a mark in their favour.

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I’ve tried my best to distract myself from it as best I can which has worked to an extent (there’s been about four things today that’s helped distract) but I still felt the need to make this post and get the thoughts out in the hopes they don’t infest my brain.

Current Mood: drained
Current Music: Sneeg’s stream

Only a smhortush post (we’ll see if it’s actually short) which I’m gonna do now quick.

So I watched the Nintendo direct on YouTube yesterday and… not too much sticks in my head now. There seemed to be a lot of farming games, Pokemon stadium is coming to the 64 thing and there’s new pikmin coming. It ended with a date for the new Zelda game, next May, though if it will stick to it? Who knows.

I had an email saying something from the open university was coming… Which is a surprise since most of the courses are now solely online and this seemed no different. I had ordered the new frozen planet thing but I don’t expect it to be that. The thing is though it’s marked as delivered, which makes me think it’s been left at the other house with the same number around the corner. Sigh.

This morning the new Doctor Who magazine came, which has a bit about the new special. I’ve not had chance to read it since Naryu had her jabs this morning. However there is a title at last: The Power Of The Doctor. It seems suitably vague so as not to give anything away.

Naryu’s jabs went ok and the vet said she’s doing good which is good. I popped into sainsburys (after mum spent ages in there just to get flowers) and I got my first Halloween thing: a nightmare before Christmas bag which is very pretty. I also got a Lego set, Dark Trooper attack, which was reduced (and I had a voucher to get extra points for getting a toy). The set itself is… ok. I like the features and the figures, but the lift could have been bigger (especially since one of the functions is to turn it so Luke appears…. But with his lightsaber it doesn’t work).

The trip there and back has made me pretty tired so I may just rest a bit. (And maybe read the Who magazine later)

Before I do though, I do kinda wish I still had my MCR excitement. It seems like every day there’s pics from a new MCR gig and every time Gerard is dressed as something different. Last night was a nurse, but previous times have featured a cheerleader and someone with bleeding eyes and a cat? And I know there’s more. I just wish I felt any excitement from them (And I wish the others got in on the outfit game) but it’s just kinda… absent.

Current Mood: tired
Current Music: Tv

Yesterday ended up being pretty exhausting, because I had to pick up my meds (which thankfully are now all in the small tablets at last) and I ended up getting a few things… but those things ended up being heavier than I expected and by the time I got finished lugging them back home (as I was alone) I was so achy and tired. Annoyingly I couldn’t doze off even though I was tired, bleh.

This morning has been a bit annoying because I woke up and safari lost a bunch of tabs (I’m not sure how many, I think between 5-10 but it’s still annoying). Especially since I was using the pad for assessment tabs to save switching on the laptop.

Speaking of assessment I submitted it this morning. I’m not happy with question 1, because it’s to do with identifying minerals and I was never good at it during the reading. (It does not help that the identification guide will say they’re different colours but they all look white/grey/black to me)

Other things!

The minecraft talent show Video went up Tuesday night and it was so funny. From Techno saying ‘my talent is judging people’ and joining the judges, to Sapnap being cute and the Sparkly abs song. I hope they do another one because it was so funny I might even watching it again.

Both Lego advent calendars have been ordered now, with the marvel one being posted. I did order the Dream hoodie too but I’ve had no notifications yet, but then it has been busy.

I practically speed run the Assassins Creed Valhalla festival the past two nights, which is lucky cause it ends today. I got everything from it, but I’m annoyed I missed the recent event with a unicorn. BOOO! Although this festival had werewolves for some reason. (Are werewolves part of Norse mythology?)

Bandom Big Bang sign ups is starting, which is something I wouldn’t normally post about a: because I am useless at long fic cause I get distracted and 2: because bandom, but I feel I have to comment. New mods have taken over this time and they’re already making restrictive policies (no ‘problematic’ pairings or topics and they’re already banning people on tumblr). So it just seems like another event corrupted by these kinds of people.

However in response people have made the Bandom Summer Blowout, which is without such things and is open to everyone. So that’s just a heads up if anyone is thinking of doing that.

Quackity has been hinting he was going to Florida and it seemed he was gonna see Dream and Sapnap but then he posted pics last night… with George, in London. And then they did streams after. It was so chaotic of them to trick everyone like that but it definitely seems like the kinda thing they’d do. They were very chaotic and pretty together and I hope they’ll be more pics of them (and maybe Wilbur too since he’s on his way back and tagged Quackity).

I got my Kill The Lights ticket, which means I need to actually listen to them more now, oop. I’ve never gotten a ticket to a gig without listening to the artist a fair bit (with the exception of the Shikari gig but in fairness that was cause I was going for Palaye) but Jay.

Blind Channel have announced a uk tour next year so I might go see them.

I’m hoping to do some icons today or tomorrow, as well sorting more additions to the post I mentioned in the last one but didn’t because of tiredness and such.

For now I think I’m gonna put on the Galaxy 4 special features. I might do some of the new Winterfest demos later too (and there’s the last Maxx stream for awhile and the game awards late tonight).