We’re doomed

[shadowhive]

The world is going crazy which is... well, not good for my anxiety. I’ve had trouble sleeping at night and my head has been.... well, crazy.

Mum had the daily virus update on yesterday for the first time and... it just made me feel worse.

There’s talk of universal basic income and benefits going up but I’ll believe it when I see it.

I sent my uni assessment off today but, it’s not the best especially the essay part. I just can’t focus and I figured the best thing was to send it. After all I know I’m not alone. I checked the uni forums, something I don’t often do and so many are worrying and asking questions. I even emailed my tutor yesterday. Then about an hour ago I had a mail saying the exam was cancelled. I expect the last tma will be altered to since it has a group element which... yeah I don’t see happening.

So... yeah. Stress abounds.

Eurovision and free comic book day have both been been cancelled (well comic book day has been delayed) which is further disappointment. Not being able to go out has meant I don’t have a mo5hers day card so I’ll have to make it.

At least animal crossing (and the amiibo cards) are on their way due to come tomorrow. I’m ready to lose myself in it. It’s just what I and others need right now.

A good thing was I got Star Wars origami when I walked Naryu yesterday so I might try that sometime.

I’m gonna cuddle and watch stuff, maybe game. I was thinking of putting a film on Netflix since there’s nothing really on. But mum saw an ad for Logan so we might watch that but I’m it really wanting to since it’s meant to be grim.

As I’ve said on twitter and discord, if you read fic on ao3 as an escape, please leave a comment to let writers know. It means the world and we all need to smile.

Finally some links to videos.

The San Diego zoo is live streaming some animals including koalas

The Monterey bay aquarium is also live-streaming animals too.

Comments

[dreamersdare]

Don't watch Boris, hon. He's not reassuring, he's a bloody idiot (and, shocker, not good at leadership *sighs*). Pick a reputable source for your news that you trust and check it once a day for key updates, but it's usually better for anxiety to not dwell on it. To be honest though, all of my friends who struggle with anxiety and depression are struggling with this. We live in scary fucking times.

All of our uni face to face stuff is basically cancelled (teaching, assessments, research, meetings - all of it). I'd be surprised if your tma goes ahead - we're currently evaluating how to rework an assessment due to be done in May as a group presentation, since university has basically told students not to return to campus after Easter...

Enjoy Animal Crossing. Distractions are good!

[shadowhive]

Yeah he’s such an idiot. At least he had experts on there with him but still. I try and avoid news in general and especially so now. Yeah it’s scary, I’m not surprised, 🥺I hope they stay safe

Yeah it’s no surprise there. Being with the open uni makes things different, but I told my tutor yesterday that the group thing seems... like a bad idea so I’m sure it’ll be cancelled

Yeah, it’s the best distraction there could be! I’d already really been looking forward to it but this just makes me even more glad of it🖤

How’re you doing?

[dreamersdare]

I'm working on it. Have a pretty good idea who's high risk versus who will cope, so am keeping a close eye where I need to and sacrificing social distancing, because there are lots of different types of vulnerability and social distance makes some of them worse (as I am sure you know!) :(

If the OU proceeds with any face to face teaching, they will be pretty much the only uni in the country doing so. I think you're right, I genuinely cannot see it happening. The module I teach at uni is also assessed by group presentations (due in May) and the decision has already been made that that won't be happening (I mean, fuck, we've already told all staff and PGRs to work from home, and students not to come back after Easter). God knows what the actual plan for assessment will be, but it won't involve putting people in the same room.

I'm okay, I'm pretty good at rolling with the punches (thank you, psychological make-up) and tend to have a pretty fatalistic approach to shit I can't change so am largely adopting an attitude of "it be reet" to all of it and trying to work out bits and bobs I can do to help myself, my social circle and more widely. That latter is hard though; there's no clear co-ordination, so finding ways to help in general is challenging! Also finding I'm spending a lot of time trying to save our small business, which is just not covered by any of the ridiculously out of touch proposals put forward by the government to "help" business, since they assume that all businesses run on a conventional bricks and mortar shop model *eyeroll*

[shadowhive]

Yeah that’s true, you’re a good friend *hugs you tight*

Nah they’ve already cancelled face to face stuff. I dunno what the group stuff entailed and I’m not even looking in case it’s out the window. *hugs*yeah that sounds sensible

Good luck with all of that. Yeah the proposals don’t go far enough I’ve heard so I expect they’ll all change soon. It’s all a bit of a disaster and things seem to change daily

*hugs you tight*

[turps]

Boris is an idiot but I'm still watching his meetings to see what's going on. I have to admit, I was reassured about the 80% wage coverage for those who'll lose their jobs. Not for me but Corey. So, I hope they usher that into place as fast as they promise. Not that they will I'm sure but I live in hope.

[shadowhive]

I hope so too, I know people are worried about it being too complicated and all. *fingers crossed* we’ll see!