You look pretty low
Jun. 28th, 2019 01:05 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
shadowhiveSo the last few days have been all over the place.
Wednesday was the most part ok. I had to be downstairs early since mum was waiting on something to come. Of course it didn’t come until about 5 at night, which was a bit annoying. However the crystals I’d ordered did come which was good (though I’m kinda not sure which is which since I got a few blue ones).
I meant to read some more of Queen’s Shadow, but I couldn’t focus what with having to keep my eye out for a delivery.
I’d played Call Of Cthulhu a few nights but I’d got frustrated with it. First due to a running section which must have took me an hour to do and then an asylum but which was stealthy and I just failed at it. So I’ve not done anything to it the last few days.
Wednesday night, I got tired too so I went to sleep pretty early... then woke up in the middle of the night. The problem with that was I couldn’t get back to sleep at all. It soon became apparent that the reason why was my mood had plummeted. So yesterday I was low, feeling apathetic and just... depressed. It’s been awhile since I’ve had a downswing like this, but really, I can’t say I’m surprised.
Between de-stressing after the exam, followed by re-stressing due to the health assessment, the usual overthinking thoughts and the anniversary of both losing Danny and nan... it was probably inevitable.
So yesterday was a blah day. Sleeping in the afternoon helped a little (as did having my love around) but my mood still stayed pretty low. I ended up watching Lucifer some more last night which did help some but I just got tired.
This morning was equally tiring and mum had a frustrating call from my dumb uncle reminding her that today was the anniversary of nan dying. What does he care? He was never around for her at the end when we needed him most. Emily, who lived half way across the country saw her more in a year than he did!
It’s sad that I can’t really remember her much when she was healthy. All I can think when I remember her was when she was in that bed, lying them with no recollection of anyone or anything. It’s the cruelest thing, watching someone you love become a shell of what they are. I’m glad she went when she did, though part of me wishes she had gone sooner. She didn’t deserve to become like that. No one does.
After leaving flowers at the cemetery, we went to the library to the cake sale. I had a go on the tombola then got some cakes before popping in the co-op down there (and getting some more stuff from there) and now I’m home.
I dunno what I’m gonna do today. Maybe I will end up reading some, or maybe I’ll just bundle up. I dunno.
Wednesday was the most part ok. I had to be downstairs early since mum was waiting on something to come. Of course it didn’t come until about 5 at night, which was a bit annoying. However the crystals I’d ordered did come which was good (though I’m kinda not sure which is which since I got a few blue ones).
I meant to read some more of Queen’s Shadow, but I couldn’t focus what with having to keep my eye out for a delivery.
I’d played Call Of Cthulhu a few nights but I’d got frustrated with it. First due to a running section which must have took me an hour to do and then an asylum but which was stealthy and I just failed at it. So I’ve not done anything to it the last few days.
Wednesday night, I got tired too so I went to sleep pretty early... then woke up in the middle of the night. The problem with that was I couldn’t get back to sleep at all. It soon became apparent that the reason why was my mood had plummeted. So yesterday I was low, feeling apathetic and just... depressed. It’s been awhile since I’ve had a downswing like this, but really, I can’t say I’m surprised.
Between de-stressing after the exam, followed by re-stressing due to the health assessment, the usual overthinking thoughts and the anniversary of both losing Danny and nan... it was probably inevitable.
So yesterday was a blah day. Sleeping in the afternoon helped a little (as did having my love around) but my mood still stayed pretty low. I ended up watching Lucifer some more last night which did help some but I just got tired.
This morning was equally tiring and mum had a frustrating call from my dumb uncle reminding her that today was the anniversary of nan dying. What does he care? He was never around for her at the end when we needed him most. Emily, who lived half way across the country saw her more in a year than he did!
It’s sad that I can’t really remember her much when she was healthy. All I can think when I remember her was when she was in that bed, lying them with no recollection of anyone or anything. It’s the cruelest thing, watching someone you love become a shell of what they are. I’m glad she went when she did, though part of me wishes she had gone sooner. She didn’t deserve to become like that. No one does.
After leaving flowers at the cemetery, we went to the library to the cake sale. I had a go on the tombola then got some cakes before popping in the co-op down there (and getting some more stuff from there) and now I’m home.
I dunno what I’m gonna do today. Maybe I will end up reading some, or maybe I’ll just bundle up. I dunno.
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Date: 2019-07-01 09:31 am (UTC)I do hope this one is better ♥
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