Let the past die
Jan. 17th, 2019 11:14 amYesterday was an odd day.
Mostly because a downswing threatened around the edges again, which tends to make my mind drift and hyperfixate again. Fuck. I think it didn’t help that I didn’t have a fic that I could use to distract myself with (after finishing the last one I dunno what to do).
I ended up reading some of the stuff at
orgasmsandwoe yesterday, because ngh, there was MCR gaining stuff and it was just great (although it made me want more). Thanks Aka for linking me to that.
Last night my mind was still all over the place so I couldn’t focus on anything. (It didn’t help that instead of Insert Name Here there was more brexit nonsense, ugh).:I ended up on the Xbox, scrolling through games for like, 20 minutes before eventually settling on something. I settled on Planet Alpha, which I won from one of the Id@xbox streams. The game itself is pretty but a little... boring? And annoying. It made me think of planet of eyes, since it’s just linear walking around and stuff (although alpha has harder sections and lacks the audio things eyes has so nothing has context).
After that I ended up watching QI on Netflix (since I didn’t feel like watching anything new) and QI is good because I can just close my eyes and listen. (Although that sometimes, like last night, means I drift off.) I felt better after the doze, hauling myself up to bed when I woke.
I made a decision last night that I’d get rid of the few icons that I had left of TK, because they wouldn’t get used, they were a reminder of the friend I lost and it would free up space for new icons. So I did that this morning, freeing up (and then filling) up the space. So now I have a few more Star Wars icons, an icon for Discovery and a Palaye one. I’m gonna save one space until Umbrella Academy cause I want an icon of Klaus and I’m certain that there’ll be a pic I like more released before then.
Before I did my icons I did the next Night Vale relisten, but it seems the Good Morning Night Vale ep for it isn’t up yet today. I ended up doing my uni reading after upcoming but ugh. Mum was a pain. She’s had her eye on lulu Guinness stuff because of the sale, but I’ve tried my best to dissuade her from it because the money simply isn’t there (and she’d not use the damn things). Today though they had an extra 10% off so I had to humour her and try. Thankfully PayPal doesn’t seem to have pay after delivery for it so she won’t be able to get the bag, but I may get her the purse just to shut her up about it.
(If pay after delivery had been an option it woulda meant going to Palaye would be completely off the table so thank fuck it hasn’t.)
Thankfully her walking Naryu seems to have managed her expectations and made her see a bit of sense.
Also last night I went on tumblr and there’s an option to look at what was flagged as adult, so I looked out of interest. Stuff that was flagged: a homoemo pic I posted ages ago (which, ok it is porn but that was an eternity ago wtf), the pics Moose posted on Jay’s account (which included a dick so, yeah makes sense), topless band boys (which, you know, don’t have female presenting nipples), a photo from a band’s merch (...) and pics of me holding a stuck insect (???). Tumblr is fucking weird. I appealed most of them and, thankfully they have been unflagged, the topless ones anyway (and last two).
Ugh tumblr.
I’ve updated the fic writing post and I probably will more too.
Anyway. I should get ready now. Naryu is gonna have her cut at 12, so I’m gonna be going with her and staying with her, but I’ll be back for the rest of the day.
I might do a proper about me post, since I’ve had people add me during snowflake and such (plus the friending meme on snowflake was yesterday and I have a new person from it).
Mostly because a downswing threatened around the edges again, which tends to make my mind drift and hyperfixate again. Fuck. I think it didn’t help that I didn’t have a fic that I could use to distract myself with (after finishing the last one I dunno what to do).
I ended up reading some of the stuff at
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Last night my mind was still all over the place so I couldn’t focus on anything. (It didn’t help that instead of Insert Name Here there was more brexit nonsense, ugh).:I ended up on the Xbox, scrolling through games for like, 20 minutes before eventually settling on something. I settled on Planet Alpha, which I won from one of the Id@xbox streams. The game itself is pretty but a little... boring? And annoying. It made me think of planet of eyes, since it’s just linear walking around and stuff (although alpha has harder sections and lacks the audio things eyes has so nothing has context).
After that I ended up watching QI on Netflix (since I didn’t feel like watching anything new) and QI is good because I can just close my eyes and listen. (Although that sometimes, like last night, means I drift off.) I felt better after the doze, hauling myself up to bed when I woke.
I made a decision last night that I’d get rid of the few icons that I had left of TK, because they wouldn’t get used, they were a reminder of the friend I lost and it would free up space for new icons. So I did that this morning, freeing up (and then filling) up the space. So now I have a few more Star Wars icons, an icon for Discovery and a Palaye one. I’m gonna save one space until Umbrella Academy cause I want an icon of Klaus and I’m certain that there’ll be a pic I like more released before then.
Before I did my icons I did the next Night Vale relisten, but it seems the Good Morning Night Vale ep for it isn’t up yet today. I ended up doing my uni reading after upcoming but ugh. Mum was a pain. She’s had her eye on lulu Guinness stuff because of the sale, but I’ve tried my best to dissuade her from it because the money simply isn’t there (and she’d not use the damn things). Today though they had an extra 10% off so I had to humour her and try. Thankfully PayPal doesn’t seem to have pay after delivery for it so she won’t be able to get the bag, but I may get her the purse just to shut her up about it.
(If pay after delivery had been an option it woulda meant going to Palaye would be completely off the table so thank fuck it hasn’t.)
Thankfully her walking Naryu seems to have managed her expectations and made her see a bit of sense.
Also last night I went on tumblr and there’s an option to look at what was flagged as adult, so I looked out of interest. Stuff that was flagged: a homoemo pic I posted ages ago (which, ok it is porn but that was an eternity ago wtf), the pics Moose posted on Jay’s account (which included a dick so, yeah makes sense), topless band boys (which, you know, don’t have female presenting nipples), a photo from a band’s merch (...) and pics of me holding a stuck insect (???). Tumblr is fucking weird. I appealed most of them and, thankfully they have been unflagged, the topless ones anyway (and last two).
Ugh tumblr.
I’ve updated the fic writing post and I probably will more too.
Anyway. I should get ready now. Naryu is gonna have her cut at 12, so I’m gonna be going with her and staying with her, but I’ll be back for the rest of the day.
I might do a proper about me post, since I’ve had people add me during snowflake and such (plus the friending meme on snowflake was yesterday and I have a new person from it).