For the first time in forever

[shadowhive]

The last few days have largely been uneventful. I’ve been reading the visual dictionary, which I’ve just finished today, watching films (mostly whatever has been on bbc1) and at night gaming a bit (usually a day on Stardew and Elder Scrolls Online, I’ve almost finished the main quest of Elsweyr at last on it).

I’ve been slowly ficcing and I hope to get it done today after lunch. Hopefully creativity will return fully soon.

Tomorrow the plan is to go to Birmingham to look for stuff in the sales, not that I expect there to be much. We’ll be hitting up the forbidden planets first in case they have Star Wars stuff cheap or TUA funkos, (or the comics I’m looking for). Other than that I wanna check out the new Lego store and look to see what the entertainer, the works and Disney store have. At the same time I’m kinda... not looking forward to it? A part of me just wants to stay nice and cozy at home without having to deal with people.

The main annoyance of the last few days though is that depression has been back. Mostly at night (the worst being when I went to bed and couldn’t sleep, still being awake after 5am). It’s annoying to have the sadness fall over me like a shroud repeatedly. It comes and goes and I dunno why. It’s annoying, feeling this apathy and sadness, especially when it keeps me up at night.

Hopefully it goes away soon but... ehh

Edit: I did a post here


I’m gonna go through the comments at some point to find new peeps to add.

I’m doing snowflake again next month since it was fun this year

Comments

[turps]

I'm sorry that depression is sneaking back. That black dog is cruel at times. *hugs*

While I understand the need to snuggle up and stay inside, maybe a trip out to look at stuff in the sales would be a good break.

[shadowhive]

Thanks *hugs you tight* it sucks and needs to shoo

Maybe, I just hope it’s not like... insanely busy

[wenchpixie]

The sales have been a bit disappointing this year I think - I hope you had better luck than me.

This can be a tough time of year for depression - I don't think it does well with the general societal expectation of joy!and!more!Joy, you know? And along with the days being so short, it's not great. I hope it gets better.

[shadowhive]

Aww *hugs* I’m not expecting much, I’m sure most of the best stuff (especially in Forbidden Planet) is gone already, though I hope to get FinnPoe funkos from the entertainer

Yeah exactly. I dunno if it’s because of missing my grandparents (which often happens this time of year), missing the friend that ditched me (cause she’d always do me a Xmas fic) or just general depression. Or a mix.*hugs*

[sperrywink]

Good luck getting out of your slump. They always suck.

And I hope you have fun in Birmingham and find some good sale items.

[shadowhive]

Thanks, I hope it goes soon too

I hope so! I’ll be sure to make a post