My body is a temple, desolate and crumbling

[shadowhive]

Ugh the past few days have felt exhausting, mostly, as you could guess from the title, because my body has been… ugh.

*The thing on my back has gotten more painful and has been bleeding more
*I’ve been having terrible headaches (which I dunno are due to stress or…)
*I’ve been having tooth pain and I dunno what caused it but it’s been so intermittent and annoying
*My eyes have been aching
*My stomach’s been aching (though that, at least, has died down)
*and cause of all that I’ve had trouble sleeping

So yeah my body feels like it’s turned against me to do all of those things at once. Of cause some of those things might be due to the stress and anxiety of the first thing (especially cause the appointment is Sunday and, of course, I’m worried it’ll be cancelled last minute again) but ugh. I just want my body to stop cause this is annoying.

It’s all meant I’ve had trouble focussing which sucks because, again, I’ve wanted to fic but any time I try some new pain happens. It’s also made me incredibly irritable which ugh.

The only thing that’s had success in distracting my brain has been Star Wars Outlaws, which has become a time sink and a distraction but a welcome one. I do still wanna watch Solo again sometime cause of it.

Things haven’t been helped by mum deciding yesterday (with about half hour notice) that we absolutely had to go to Cannock to get cat food. Usually we get it from the local home bargains, but the sort they usually have has been discontinued and there’s not roadworks between here and there making it blocked off. So off to town we went and it was largely uneventful but exhausting. (I didn’t get ansything exciting just some books and a pumpkin decorating thing.)

Today’s been oki, though my focus has still been off which is annoying. At least the Rock Sound Set It off thing came (it came super quick and the tee looks nice) but I’ve not read either of the issues (there was that and a Waterparks one too).

I hope I get a better sleep and tomorrow will be restful but somehow I doubt both.

Comments

[yarnofariadne]

You've really had an awful run with health, it's no wonder you aren't feeling great emotionally either. I hope you get some relief soon.

[shadowhive]

Yeah my body has just been so mean lately it’s so frustrating😭 yeah everything has been so exhausting😔at least the appointment didn’t get cancelled today (so the thing is gone though it’s still stinging)

[yarnofariadne]

So relieved for you that it's gone! I hope the stinging stops soon.

[turps]

I hope you do get some rest today. You obviously need it.

[shadowhive]

Thanks, alas I didn’t get much sleep the past nights (especially last night which was so annoyingg😭)

[dreamersdare]

Fingers crossed for some effective r&r time; sounds like you've earned it!

[shadowhive]

Thanks, I hope so too😭

[turlough]

*hugs you long and hard and sends many good thoughts*