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May. 22nd, 2024 02:43 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
shadowhiveThe weekend has largely been tiring, I ended up spending Saturday mostly crashing which was annoying (especially cause I intended to watch a film in the night) I think it was a mix of the heat and stress.
But ugh mum is really so stressful. It feels if I leave her unattended she pushes herself to do stuff which isn’t reassuring about the weekend I’m away. I have such anxiety that I’ll come back and she’s done something ridiculous to herself.
She had a go appointment Monday, which she made before we went to the hospital last week. She tried to get out of it, saying she didn’t wanna go but I insisted, cause after all part of switching doctors was so we could find out why she has these falls. It seems this doctor is taking them seriously as now she has two extra appointments, one next week for some sort of test and there’s gonna be a scan.
Yesterday my anxiety was pretty high, cause of that, making a waste trip in the morning, my own appointment today and other things. I essentially ended up shutting down part of the night which is so… ugh. I’m not sure if it’s better or worse that my anxiety has actual things to focus on instead of vagueness.
I woke this morning and there was a bad storm outside, which eased up a bit but I was still wet when I went to the appointment. Doctor has switched my meds so I’ll pick those up and he things the b12 and those will help, but we’ll see. He’s also referring me to someone cause of a thing on my back, so we’ll see if that gets sorted. I am sure I didn’t mention things I meant to but my brain is so blank.
This weekend is Slam Dunk and I keep an eye on their twitter to see if things get announced. There’s been signings but the only band I’d be interested in is Palaye, however the timing is so bad (right after Set It Off and over The Blackout) and the map says the place the signing should be is clear across the site so I don’t think it’d be worth even trying. (If it was parx I might but).
I am hoping I’ll be able to switch my anxiety off and have a nice time, especially cause of Set It Off and Parx. And I really hope they have decent merch but we’ll see).
Now I’m gonna bundle up, watch Seapeekay and maybe fic. Then tomorrow and Friday it’s sort the stuff for the weekend.
But ugh mum is really so stressful. It feels if I leave her unattended she pushes herself to do stuff which isn’t reassuring about the weekend I’m away. I have such anxiety that I’ll come back and she’s done something ridiculous to herself.
She had a go appointment Monday, which she made before we went to the hospital last week. She tried to get out of it, saying she didn’t wanna go but I insisted, cause after all part of switching doctors was so we could find out why she has these falls. It seems this doctor is taking them seriously as now she has two extra appointments, one next week for some sort of test and there’s gonna be a scan.
Yesterday my anxiety was pretty high, cause of that, making a waste trip in the morning, my own appointment today and other things. I essentially ended up shutting down part of the night which is so… ugh. I’m not sure if it’s better or worse that my anxiety has actual things to focus on instead of vagueness.
I woke this morning and there was a bad storm outside, which eased up a bit but I was still wet when I went to the appointment. Doctor has switched my meds so I’ll pick those up and he things the b12 and those will help, but we’ll see. He’s also referring me to someone cause of a thing on my back, so we’ll see if that gets sorted. I am sure I didn’t mention things I meant to but my brain is so blank.
This weekend is Slam Dunk and I keep an eye on their twitter to see if things get announced. There’s been signings but the only band I’d be interested in is Palaye, however the timing is so bad (right after Set It Off and over The Blackout) and the map says the place the signing should be is clear across the site so I don’t think it’d be worth even trying. (If it was parx I might but).
I am hoping I’ll be able to switch my anxiety off and have a nice time, especially cause of Set It Off and Parx. And I really hope they have decent merch but we’ll see).
Now I’m gonna bundle up, watch Seapeekay and maybe fic. Then tomorrow and Friday it’s sort the stuff for the weekend.
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Date: 2024-05-22 04:40 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2024-05-22 05:27 pm (UTC)I hope the new meds work out well!
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Date: 2024-05-23 04:13 pm (UTC)I hope so too,
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Date: 2024-05-22 10:21 pm (UTC)I'm so jealous about Slam. I hate that I'm not going 😭😭😭
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Date: 2024-05-23 04:10 pm (UTC)Awww no! I wish I could sneak saur in!