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Jun. 15th, 2020 12:50 pmNo June something in this post, maybe later. (Since I missed yesterday’s too.)
The weekend has been a bit blah for multiple reasons which I’ll cover in the post. The first, the weather. It’s been warm and sticky and bleh. And then it rained Saturday (including lighting) but it didn’t last alas.
One annoyance came from our neighbour who decided this weekend to take down the fence. The fence was fine as far as I could tell so I dunno why they took it down. The annoyance was that they didn’t tell us, so we had no idea until we looked out and three panels were down. That’s meant we couldn’t have the door open when it was warm and also that Naryu could only go outside on her lead (cause she’s so fast and would be gone). It was just so inconsiderate.
Saturday night I watched download but only for Funeral For A Friend. They played a few of their songs and had an interview with two of the boys. No word on if there’ll be more music or shows from them, but Darran looks just the same as in the performances from 06. It made me think about the friend that liked them that ditched me which made me a little sad but.,,
Then I put on the isle of wright festival highlights, which included Queen and Adam Lambert, they only played three songs but they were great and it made me wish there was more. After that I played Deliver Us The Moon some more and very clear what happened in it was no accident but part of a conspiracy. I intended to do more last night but... didn’t (more on that later). I was annoyed that one achievement was impossible so I missed out on it. Damn evil robot.
Sunday wasn’t a terribly exciting day. I was gonna put a film on in the afternoon but felt too drained to so I dozed instead.
It’s perhaps ironic that it’s the year that MCR was meant to return that it’s the year the fandom decided to eat itself, like some deranged ouroboros. It seems not a week goes by now that some form of drama is happening with it. Between the general harassing of creditors that’s also been there, to dredging up mistakes people made years ago (or even rumours of mistakes) to minors sneaking into the nsfw parts of fandom and complaining about it or just to call out people.
It’s just so tiring. I’m blocked, or have blocked, parts of the fandom on twitter but there’s still vague posts going around and it’s just... tiring to see other people get targeted. Honestly, and I’ve said it before, it’s making me sick of the MCR fandom and I’m pretty close to just abandoning it altogether apart from the ones I know and have stuck around. Can’t we go back to how things used to be? It’s just a tire fire now,
Anyway.
I called to sort today’s food shop but it’s gonna be tomorrow instead which..l I’m not too great at the routine being disrupted but... eh.
Last night after Batwoman I just... crashed. It’s hard to describe properly but part of my depression is that, sometimes, I‘ll just shut down for no real reason. I’ll just lay there and not want to do or watch anything. It’s... weird, and meds seem to keep it at bay though sometimes it still slips through.
And yeah, last night was one of those times.
After about an hour I managed to move myself to bed, where I lay for an unknown amount of time before sleeping.
(Which led to an odd dream about exams which made no sense because it was at a shopping center? Strange)
This morning I put on a magnus Archives and then went out with the pup. (Though mum was annoyed cause aforementioned neighbour left a bunching of mess in the garden by the fence, ugh) anyway, I’m gonna snuggle and watch stuff (and there’s a new Star Wars game trailer at 4)
The weekend has been a bit blah for multiple reasons which I’ll cover in the post. The first, the weather. It’s been warm and sticky and bleh. And then it rained Saturday (including lighting) but it didn’t last alas.
One annoyance came from our neighbour who decided this weekend to take down the fence. The fence was fine as far as I could tell so I dunno why they took it down. The annoyance was that they didn’t tell us, so we had no idea until we looked out and three panels were down. That’s meant we couldn’t have the door open when it was warm and also that Naryu could only go outside on her lead (cause she’s so fast and would be gone). It was just so inconsiderate.
Saturday night I watched download but only for Funeral For A Friend. They played a few of their songs and had an interview with two of the boys. No word on if there’ll be more music or shows from them, but Darran looks just the same as in the performances from 06. It made me think about the friend that liked them that ditched me which made me a little sad but.,,
Then I put on the isle of wright festival highlights, which included Queen and Adam Lambert, they only played three songs but they were great and it made me wish there was more. After that I played Deliver Us The Moon some more and very clear what happened in it was no accident but part of a conspiracy. I intended to do more last night but... didn’t (more on that later). I was annoyed that one achievement was impossible so I missed out on it. Damn evil robot.
Sunday wasn’t a terribly exciting day. I was gonna put a film on in the afternoon but felt too drained to so I dozed instead.
It’s perhaps ironic that it’s the year that MCR was meant to return that it’s the year the fandom decided to eat itself, like some deranged ouroboros. It seems not a week goes by now that some form of drama is happening with it. Between the general harassing of creditors that’s also been there, to dredging up mistakes people made years ago (or even rumours of mistakes) to minors sneaking into the nsfw parts of fandom and complaining about it or just to call out people.
It’s just so tiring. I’m blocked, or have blocked, parts of the fandom on twitter but there’s still vague posts going around and it’s just... tiring to see other people get targeted. Honestly, and I’ve said it before, it’s making me sick of the MCR fandom and I’m pretty close to just abandoning it altogether apart from the ones I know and have stuck around. Can’t we go back to how things used to be? It’s just a tire fire now,
Anyway.
I called to sort today’s food shop but it’s gonna be tomorrow instead which..l I’m not too great at the routine being disrupted but... eh.
Last night after Batwoman I just... crashed. It’s hard to describe properly but part of my depression is that, sometimes, I‘ll just shut down for no real reason. I’ll just lay there and not want to do or watch anything. It’s... weird, and meds seem to keep it at bay though sometimes it still slips through.
And yeah, last night was one of those times.
After about an hour I managed to move myself to bed, where I lay for an unknown amount of time before sleeping.
(Which led to an odd dream about exams which made no sense because it was at a shopping center? Strange)
This morning I put on a magnus Archives and then went out with the pup. (Though mum was annoyed cause aforementioned neighbour left a bunching of mess in the garden by the fence, ugh) anyway, I’m gonna snuggle and watch stuff (and there’s a new Star Wars game trailer at 4)
