Nevermore

[shadowhive]

So yesterday seemed to slowly get better. I did some reading, I napped and, at night, I watched Shada. There was also a Pokemon trailer which made me settle on getting Shield first.

And then, I dunno, after I showered the sadness returned like a wave. I ended up laying over the sofa, in the darkness and with nothing on, staring at the ceiling.

I only moved when mum came down (around 3, woken for unknown reasons) and then I shifted to bed. I managed to sleep after awhile, but the same feeling was there when I woke. I just stayed in bed, not really doing anything (even listening to music) until it was time to go.

It’s followed me through the day, like a cloud, I read some of my book, but just ended up napping. I want it to go away. I hate this feeling, especially since it came, unbidden and is now just... here. I want it to go away but, as always, I don’t know how. (And I wish I’d explained this feeling at the assessment, I knew I had on the paperwork, but didn’t articulate it in words.)

I just feel so... bleh.

Comments

[allashandra69]

I’ll be virtually cuddled with you and keeping watch all night, my love...

[shadowhive]

You’re the sweetest love 🖤

[turlough]

*sends many virtual hugs and good thoughts*

[shadowhive]

Aww thanks, you’re so sweet 🖤

[turps]

I know you're feeling better now but even so ♥

Maybe it was the assessment that prompted this a little? They do suck and having to describe your bad days isn't fun.

[shadowhive]

Thanks, you’re so sweet

And yeah it probably was. I’m not sure I described the bad days properly. They asked how often I had them, but I think she asked something else before I went into detail