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So yesterday seemed to slowly get better. I did some reading, I napped and, at night, I watched Shada. There was also a Pokemon trailer which made me settle on getting Shield first.
And then, I dunno, after I showered the sadness returned like a wave. I ended up laying over the sofa, in the darkness and with nothing on, staring at the ceiling.
I only moved when mum came down (around 3, woken for unknown reasons) and then I shifted to bed. I managed to sleep after awhile, but the same feeling was there when I woke. I just stayed in bed, not really doing anything (even listening to music) until it was time to go.
It’s followed me through the day, like a cloud, I read some of my book, but just ended up napping. I want it to go away. I hate this feeling, especially since it came, unbidden and is now just... here. I want it to go away but, as always, I don’t know how. (And I wish I’d explained this feeling at the assessment, I knew I had on the paperwork, but didn’t articulate it in words.)
I just feel so... bleh.
And then, I dunno, after I showered the sadness returned like a wave. I ended up laying over the sofa, in the darkness and with nothing on, staring at the ceiling.
I only moved when mum came down (around 3, woken for unknown reasons) and then I shifted to bed. I managed to sleep after awhile, but the same feeling was there when I woke. I just stayed in bed, not really doing anything (even listening to music) until it was time to go.
It’s followed me through the day, like a cloud, I read some of my book, but just ended up napping. I want it to go away. I hate this feeling, especially since it came, unbidden and is now just... here. I want it to go away but, as always, I don’t know how. (And I wish I’d explained this feeling at the assessment, I knew I had on the paperwork, but didn’t articulate it in words.)
I just feel so... bleh.
