Sunshine challenge 7

[shadowhive]

So it’s the last sunshine challenge prompt already! It seems time has gone so fast. It’s been fun to do and I think I’ll miss it.

The last one is about what do we like about ourselves.

To be honest, I don’t really like these sort of questions. I’ve never been much of a self lover (no sniggering Heather!) and that’s probably come from the mess of my life. I was bullied as a kid, even before I came out. I was shy and quiet, so I found it hard to make friends. I’m bad at social things too and tend to just keep to myself. If it wasn’t for the internet I don’t think I’d have anyone. (You may think I’m kidding, but I have zero friends here. The closest I have are those I see at the streetpass meets.) As such I’ve spent a big chunk of my life isolated and I spent a portion helping mum care for my grandparents, which was... draining.

I guess you could say what I love about myself is that, somehow, I’ve managed to survive this long. Bullying didn’t kill me, depression didn’t, being fucked over by people I care about didn’t, seeing the member of my family I loved most look at me like a stranger didn’t... so I guess that.

I dunno though. *shrugs*

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Sunshine has been good though. It’s been fun and anyone that wants to can follow me.

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General post stuff now.

I’ve watched some of the Who special features from the first disc and it’s pretty good. There’s just one more main thing which I might watch tonight.

The weather has been a bitch. Too sunny and warm. It feels like I’m melting and I have no focus to write which is annoying. There was a storm Tuesday night, complete with lightning but it didn’t clear the air like I hoped.

I finished the first Doom patrol volume of Gerard’s run yesterday and it’s... I’m glad I read it in one go, because I think I understood it better, though it’s still a bit crazy (I guess going in clueless didn’t help). I’m gonna try and read the second volume later in hopes some more things will get explained. (like the weird girl and the cat)

I ended up sleeping early last night which was annoying.

I’ve still been on Stardew a lot. I’m almost at winter now and I’m gonna unlock the quarry then which should help level up mining. The mine has become too hard which is frustrating and I can’t seem to find out what to do to make it easier. Still I love Sebastian and he’s over 8 hearts now. And I have an extra chicken to live with Gerard.

<>I’m gonna try and sort new icons when mum’s at the library. Lucifer, Frank in drag, glasses Gerard and aWho icon. I know what I’m gonna lose too. The solo Eicca one and the Nachtblut ones (as much as I love them, I’m not gonna write them anymore so...)

Edit to add: turns out I didn’t need to edit any, there was an icon slot increase and I didn’t realise oops.

Saturday is meant to be the Streetpass meet in Birmingham but I’m not sure about going. It’s a mix of the heat, lack of money and the fact I’ve not got the game that’s the focus. We’ll see though.

Lastly I still have this meme if you wanna leave me guys for it.

Comments

[meridian_rose]

I don't have irl friends either. My close family instead and that for reasons has been difficult on and off this past year. Even the couple of friends I do know live far away so I only interact sometimes with them online. It can be hard. I've been bullied but also very much ignored, didn't fit in with my peers so the internet has been a big boon.

Sunshine has been great, and you're one of the few to complete all the days. I've been doing them late and then going through other replies and it's been a bit sad to see how everyone was eager for prompt 1 but there's only a single page of entries for this last prompt. So kudos for completing the challenge too :)

[shadowhive]

*hugs you* That’s awful, I’ve been there so I know how that all feels. I’ve never fit in much, so the net is great at getting me interacting with likeminded and awesome people out there

Yeah it really is! I’m surprised by that actually. That’s a shame, but I’m glad you did it 🖤