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Slow days

I’ve been failing at updating again. Ah well.

Past week has been mostly a rest one, because I was tired from going out last week and also my meds were kicking my ass. I’d had to stop taking them while I was sick awhile ago so of course the side effects hit me. Fucking things.

I thought all I had to do for uni was the project write up, but when I went to check the assessment page said I needed to do another one too... for something that was done at least a month ago with no warning! So I need to do whatever that is again so it’s fresh in my mind. Fuckers. I started the write up yesterday and hope to get my project one done over the next few days, then start the other, but it’s still annoying.

The side effects meant I was unfocused so didn’t read either my book or free comic book day stuff like I wanted. I have read two of the free comic book day comics, but I had hoped to read more. Being unfocused also meant writing was slow, which ugh.

I have a health assessment for to fill in too which ugh. I hate those things, but I’ve not even tried to fill it in yet.

Good things though.

While walking the pup we saw the baby swans and then the following day, there were baby geese! 12 little baby floofs! They’re so adorable and sweet.

New Taskmaster started Wednesday, which is hilarious as always despite me not being super familiar with the contestants. I’ve took a shine to Iain though.

I got Lego from the May the 4th sales on amazon, so I built that this week. I got Moloch’s landspeeder and the Death Star escape, which were fun to do.

I started Vampyr on xbox game pass and it seems good, even though it’s a little grim (and some of the faces seem a bit... off). I also won My Time At Portia which I started last night. It feels like it’ll be a huge time sink so I’m not sure I’ll do too much on it but we’ll see.

I also feel very loved, and cared for, which is nice. It’s a feeling I’ve not had in a long time and it’s just... so nice.

Today we went to see the floofs, but ugh! Some fucker left a saw on the floor! It’s about the size of my arm and was right there were kids or dogs could’ve been hurt by it.

Next week, I’m gonna sort the project, plus there’s Eurovision and detective pikachu Wednesday (which I’m super excited for!). It’s also Kliego week and I have 4/7 fics ready to go (annoyingly the one fic I started first is the one I’ve stalled on because I dunno how to go with it). I’m gonna do the power swap one today and then we’ll see (I also started a Mikey centric fic too).

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I am the ghost

So it seems to be time for another post that is mostly feels but also rambling.

First off rambling.

I’ve not posted much fic lately but that doesn’t mean I’m not writing! I’ve been working on stuff for the Kliego ship week which is in two weeks. I’ve never been a part of a ship week before so I hope this does well. I have ideas for all 7 days, with two fics started and one finished. One of the fics I’m working on is around 8K already and is longer than any fic I’ve done (and it’s not close to being finished yet). It’s also something I’m oddly proud of and invested in. I really hope people like it as much as I do because it’s (mostly) so far from what I usually do. But it’s really fun and I’m just trying to work out how how I’ll end it.

(The other wip needs some thought to, but has been sidetracked for that one which kinda took over my writing thoughts. Also, ironically, the first one completed is the one I worried most about doing)

Last week was my break from uni for Easter and I was supposed to spend the time reading. I did read some fics from my tabs of doom, but not as many as I hoped. I also failed at reading Queen’s Shadow. I had been super looking forward to it, but the writing bug meant I couldn’t focus. Hopefully I’ll read a chapter or so soon. A couple of the fics I’ve been reading lately have been winding down, but they’ve been so awesome. Things like Morgue have been such amazing reads.

I meant to do some gaming recently too but, like reading, that got sidetracked. I took advantage of the £1 game pass offer on Xbox so I hope to go on some of the games on there, especially Observer and Vampyr (as well as going on Prey without disc switching).

At least I watched some stuff. I watched Mamma Mia (my feel good film) plus Alien (For Alien day... although honestly I didn’t focus much on it). I did watch a film on Shudder at last yesterday but that wasn’t too special. The climax to it felt a bit rushed.

Yesterday I got gifted an amazing Klaus/Ray fic which is ngh. I can’t wait to read more. I might watch Queen Of The Damned soon because of it.

Lately though I’ve felt bursts of emo. It’s the same feeling I felt last week. It fades in and fades out over and over. I think it might be because of memories of last year. We had mum’s cancer scare and it was around this time when we got the all clear... and when I got a hurtful message from my ‘friend’ that abandoned me. I hate so much that my depression still feels the need to get hyperfocussed back on last year. I hate it. I hate how much it scarred me, how people I thought I could count on fucked me over and how my mind tries to remind me of that.

Ugh.

Anyway it’s mum’s birthday today but it feels... I dunno, like any other day. We’re not doing anything special. I’m just gonna make cake. I treated her to Endgame last week and we’re going somewhere to eat Saturday so...

Speaking of Saturday it’s free comic book day and Star Wars day. That means Resistance is being finished off on Disney Xd but I likely won’t see it all because I need to get to Birmingham. Ug. I hope to get some nice free comics and discounted Lego from the entertainer. And maybe Forbidden Planet phill have offers. Thankfully my money will be going in early so I can get stuff.

Other than that, this week I have my last regular uni assessment before May which is just the project write up and revision. Ugh.

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It rains in heaven all day long

So I’ve not done a non-fic post in about a week so here goes I guess.

First, I was worried I was fucked with my project for uni but! The sunflower seeds started to grow thank fuck. One seems to have stalled but the rest are growing nicely which is a relief.

Thursday we went to get mum’s pills. It resulted in me going in Sainsbury’s but it was a bit of a bust cause there was none of the Lego Star Wars sets from the sale there. Disappointing, but we got a few other things.

Friday I went to Home Bargains to pick up stuff and ended up with a pack Star Wars figures I’d not seen, yay! But I ended up overspending a bit ugh. I did watch the Discovery finale and holy fuck, it was so good. A real culmination of the series so far (though sad too because of Pike leaving and Cornwell :() I watched Doctor Strange after that too which is still pretty good.

Saturday mum’s friend came round and she is just... I mean she’s nice enough really but she’s so loud and insufferable (which makes mum loud too) and so I couldn’t focus. I tried to watch Kubo and the two strings but I lost track of it pretty quick because of it.

After she left (which felt longer than usual) we took Naryu for a quick walk and settled to watch Fantastic Beasts The Crimes Of Grindlewald since we missed it at the cinema. Holy fuck, the reviews were right. What a train wreck of a movie. It was such a mess and I was so disappointed. (Where were the crimes? And what the hell did they do to Queenie? And why was it such a mess?) I can see now why Lego only made the one set (which was of one of the few good parts). Mum said it was the worst thing we’d seen since the Blade Runner sequel and I have to agree. I had hoped people were exaggerating but... nope. How did they mess it up so much?

I did get my Easter eggs though so yay chocolate! And I had my Easter Lego set of the Praetorian guards which is small but pretty nice.

And Resistance was good too, though it means sadness is coming as our disaster Kaz is going to lose everyone. And BB-8 finally left which was good to see.

Sunday we watched better films. After catching Doctor Strange on Friday I wanted to watch Thor Ragnarok before Infinity War so it became a double bill. Ragnarok is such an awesome film, definitely the best Thor film. I’m so not ready for Endgame though. I hope my boys don’t die though... I dunno. Maybe I’ll do a follow up to my fic depending on how it goes.

Music wise I’ve been listening to a The New Regime, FOB’s Mania and, oddly, Armor For Sleep today (And Gravity). I did start the Magnus archives too, which is super creepy and I love it. There was new music too, Raiders finally put out a song as did Motionless (I only like the one song, but it reminded me how sexy Chris was and which I could write him again/get more content of him).

That leads me to today. This week is my week off uni for Easter so my general plan has been to read my fic tabs of doom, read more Queen’s Shadow, catch up on podcasts, game and write (including hopefully finishing my serial killer kliego fic).

However this morning was interrupted by my depression trying to blanket me. It’s a hard thing to describe for those that don’t get depression, mainly because it was a wave of sadness with no cause. I wish it did, especially when people asked about it and I wasn’t sure what to tell them. It was just... random sadness.

Thankfully it disipated before it could latch onto something, which would’ve been worse. I don’t need to hyper focus on the people that fucked me over, nor play at my insecurities. Still a part of me worries it’ll come back. That remains to be seen though. Maybe it’s because mum’s birthday is close and the reminder of the cold message I got from Nat last year is lingering. Who knows though?

The rest of the day has been spent not doing much. I couldn’t focus on fic, so after a sesssion which cleared my head I caught the first Captain America film on film 4 (it’s my least favourite of the cap films but seems to get a little better each rewatch).

After that I finally watched Venom, which I got from Sainsbury’s with Beasts. I’d heard good things about it and, thank fuck. People were right! I loved it so much. Go see it if you haven’t because Symbrock is just perfect. There better be a sequel, because they have such potential. (And Eddie is so pure and a disaster)

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Seasons change (but people don’t)

So the stream ended yesterday exceeding its target which was pretty awesome. It was a little quiet though. I was there for the whole thing but most of the time it was just me in the chat (until the last hourish when a load of people showed up). It felt like it was a bit weaker compared to previous years too. There weren’t any indie games showed off (apart from a bit of awesome pea which looks so hard) and there wasn’t the usual hour of getting Bobby doing a horror game which was a shame. They also, oddly, didn’t show off any of the games they had on offer despite saying Saturday they would. But despite that it was pretty entertaining. I got a good collection of games for my donations (mostly indie ones, including some that I had been wanting). I had an issue with one of the codes not working, so they switched it to one double the value and towards the end when they doubled donation amounts they said I could have an extra game for free since I’d donated so much so yay!

As for the games, I’ve been on a few of them to try. Road to Ballhalla is the one I’ve been on most. It’s a puzzle game where you control a ball, rolling it along a course to the end. It’s quite good, though the difficulty spikes once the levels lose walls. Monster Slayers was something I was interested in and as soon as I played it it made me think of Vertical drop heroes (no surprise as it’s by the same developers). It’s quite tricky and easy to die, which I guess is kinda the point. I had a hard time figuring out treadnauts, since trying to get cpus playing seems to be a nuisance. Daggerhood is quite good, with short levels that I’ve died often on But it has a strong ‘one more time feeling’. Access denied is a nice little puzzler, with you figuring out how to unlock boxes which is oddly relaxing.

I’ve got a few others that I haven’t tried yet. Conarium, Hellblade, Talos Principle, Genesis Alpha One and a few others. I put them in a group on my Xbox so I can find them easier, so I’ll have a go on them over the course of the week (and I wanna go on The Council Episode 2).

So after giving a few games a go, I decided last night that I should watch a film. I didn’t feel like going on Shudder (mostly because so many of the films on my list are subtitled and I wasn’t in the mood). So I decided to go on Netflix and watch Velvet Buzzsaw. The trailer for it gave off a Layers of fear vibe so I was intrigued enough to give it a look. Unfortunately it’s one of those films where most of the best parts are shown off in the trailers. (Seriously, watching the trailer and you’ve seen the best of the film.) Those parts are really good (as are the final scenes of the film) but mostly it’s nothing too special.

This weekend mum’s ended up being a bit of a pain. She’s acted like me being upstairs watching this whole stream was a surprise, even though she’d known it was coming for weeks. (And really, it’s just two days she can survive that without me around surely). And then she is still grumpy because she hasn’t had that bag, I’m sick of it. Every time it gets bought up, we talk it over and agree it’s not worth it (or I look into ways she could only for them not to work out). I don’t get what the fixation with it is. It doesn’t look special and I know she’d not use the damn thing anyway (and, knowing her, she’d want to send it back the moment it came). It’s just so frustrating

Speaking of frustrating. I did some uni reading today. That’s not frustrating in and of itself (in fact this week’s seems straightforward and there’s not much to do this week, though there is some videos to watch for the assessment). No what is frustrating is first trying to listen to audio while mum decided to hoover and second, the tutor not getting back to me about the project. I’d sent an email to her almost two weeks ago with a rough idea to make sure it was ok and some questions but... nothing. I’m gonna have to send her another one this week sometime, because I can’t really go forward with it until I get an ok.

On a more positive note I got an ao3 kudos email and it is pretty insane. Usually I get one or two odd ones which makes me happy enough, but for the last few days I’ve got so many they take up the screen. It’s so crazy, but so awesome as well. And I’m thrilled that it means one of my otps is finally getting some love.

Speaking of The Umbrella Academy I’m gonna start a rewatch soon. It won’t be a binge this time but a more slower paced watch (I say that now...). It’ll be the first time I’ve rewatched any series this close together (and I probably shouldn’t considering I’ve got all the things to watch) but still.

umbrellakink has had more prompts (maybe because I mentioned it on ao3?) but mine is the only fill so far. Hopefully they’ll be more soon!

The weather has been nice so far today with the sun out, so much so I didn’t need my jacket on while walking Naryu. We also got to see Casper again, the big white poodle that’s almost as old as Danny was. He’s lovely and so friendly. He always comes up to us for a cuddle and a fuss.

At the start of the month I started doing a Febuary love meme but at the month went on I kinda lost track. I meant to catch up on it but I never did and then I just failed. So here’s a bunch of things I love.

*Star Wars
*BB-8
*Star Wars Bloodline (seriously, it’s the best of the new canon novels that I’ve read so far)
*Resident Evil (films)
*Ringu (I need to do a rewatch)
*Lego (specifically Lego Star Wars)
*The Umbrella Academy
*Klaus Hargreeves
*QI
*Unicorns
*The Good Place
*Brooklyn 99
*Jay James, ex-bassist of Bullet for My Valentine
*Ray Toro
*My cats Leia and Midna and my dog Naryu

I think that’s enough, possibly. Also I’ll add King Falls, which I started Saturday night and it’s pretty good so far! Funny and strange in a similar way to Night Vale but in a completely different way (I think having two regular voices really helps it).

Lastly, I’m gonna include a few pics under the cut.

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Now I’m gonna sort out the food shop and then I’ll read, possibly Canto Bight. Maybe I’ll read some outside if it stays nice.

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Move your body when the sunlight dies

I feel a bit calmer now, more at ease. I’m still irritated, but the twitter idiots seem to have found other things to focus on.

I’ve realised I’ve posted every day so far this month, mostly thanks to snowflake. Yay? I dunno. I suspect i’ll post less as they year progresses. We’ll see.

I’ve updated my fic master list with the ficlets. Though in the process I accidentally added someone I didn’t mean to. Fuck. I quickly unadded them and it’s not as if they’ll give a fuck but... eh,

There was a tutorial earlier about the project. I’m not the only one that has no fucking idea what to do for it which is... reassuring. I have a vague idea that I might go with now though, that I might grow something but I dunno.

Other than that I’ve not done much today. I wrote a few lines but that’s it really and I watched the usual stuff. The first season of Legends Of Tomorrow finished today (and I’m surprised the second one is starting tomorrow too). Poor Snart. I shoulda expected to get feels for him.

I feel exhausted but I dunno why, maybe dealing with morons drained me. Whatever. I’m gonna watch The Core some more now.

My friend on tumblr tagged me earlier in a random question thing, answers are under the cut.

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