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shadowhive) wrote2020-04-02 11:00 am
shadowhive) wrote2020-04-02 11:00 am
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Faceless
The last few days have been a bit... bleh. Especially yesterday, when my brain took a very sharp downward spiral. I just felt so low, feeling like I was annoying people, feeling isolated and just feeling so... low. The insecurities from a few years back came back and just... bleh
It seems to have faded now after a good nights sleep but... I dunno.
It’s not helped by two people trying to commit suicide and then one joking about it. I just felt so powerless, especially since I felt they were already growing distant and just... ugh.
Sigh.
Onto other things.
On Tuesday night I watched The Faceless Ones. It was pretty good and went along at a nice pace. One problem with some of the second doctor eps is because they were so long, they tended to drag. Even though Faceless ones was a six-parter I didn’t feel that way with it which was good. It was strange though that it was Ben and Polly’s last ep, but they were hardly in it. It kinda took away from their exit to hardly have them in it. But even so it was a good ep and I liked it.
My creativity is still low, though I’m still hoping to finish the short fic I started working on today. Maybe. We’ll see.
Last night I saw there were new Nailed it eps on Netflix so I started to watch them to cheer me up. I was gonna watch the last Who ep chosen for the lockdown but decided better of it because it’s not the happiest. (Even though I’ve not seen it in ages) also amusing was Feel Good last night. I swear that’s the most I’ve ever heard the word cum in a half hour.
I think I was tired last night because I didn’t have a doze in the afternoon as usual. Because I got a chicken for Naryu’s birthday (co-op now has some as well as veg and such) mum had the oven on so insisted I bake something. So I made some chocolate cookies with some of the chocolate I got from home bargains. They tasted pretty good, enough that mum suggested I do more sometime. We’ll see.
On Animal Crossing I have Lucky moved in at last which is one of my main goals. Also had KK invited so that’s good too. It’s annoying that bunny day includes eggs you get by fishing cause I can’t find any of the new fish because of them, damnit.
This morning I’ve actually looked at the group thing and I’ve done some to it, though I’m not sure I’ve done it right. The tutor said as long as I did something it’d be ok but I still think such a thing is folly.
Today’s plan is, as always, to go back on AC, to try and fic and, if it’s come, read the new Who magazine.
It seems to have faded now after a good nights sleep but... I dunno.
It’s not helped by two people trying to commit suicide and then one joking about it. I just felt so powerless, especially since I felt they were already growing distant and just... ugh.
Sigh.
Onto other things.
On Tuesday night I watched The Faceless Ones. It was pretty good and went along at a nice pace. One problem with some of the second doctor eps is because they were so long, they tended to drag. Even though Faceless ones was a six-parter I didn’t feel that way with it which was good. It was strange though that it was Ben and Polly’s last ep, but they were hardly in it. It kinda took away from their exit to hardly have them in it. But even so it was a good ep and I liked it.
My creativity is still low, though I’m still hoping to finish the short fic I started working on today. Maybe. We’ll see.
Last night I saw there were new Nailed it eps on Netflix so I started to watch them to cheer me up. I was gonna watch the last Who ep chosen for the lockdown but decided better of it because it’s not the happiest. (Even though I’ve not seen it in ages) also amusing was Feel Good last night. I swear that’s the most I’ve ever heard the word cum in a half hour.
I think I was tired last night because I didn’t have a doze in the afternoon as usual. Because I got a chicken for Naryu’s birthday (co-op now has some as well as veg and such) mum had the oven on so insisted I bake something. So I made some chocolate cookies with some of the chocolate I got from home bargains. They tasted pretty good, enough that mum suggested I do more sometime. We’ll see.
On Animal Crossing I have Lucky moved in at last which is one of my main goals. Also had KK invited so that’s good too. It’s annoying that bunny day includes eggs you get by fishing cause I can’t find any of the new fish because of them, damnit.
This morning I’ve actually looked at the group thing and I’ve done some to it, though I’m not sure I’ve done it right. The tutor said as long as I did something it’d be ok but I still think such a thing is folly.
Today’s plan is, as always, to go back on AC, to try and fic and, if it’s come, read the new Who magazine.
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*hugs you*
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Brains are tricksy fuckers, and they're all handling the stress in different ways - all my friends who struggle with their mental health are seeing those particular issues flaring up, those who don't are feeling it in different ways (but definitely still feeling it; I can see it in myself, let alone everyone I know). I think my point is that we've now moved into the long term stress effects, and those are bad for everyone. It's okay to acknowledge it, and give yourself a break. Remind those brain zombies that you know what they are and you're wise to them, even if they are making you feel shitty.
Good to hear that you're still getting stuff done as well. Well done on achieving productivity with no motivation. You win today :)
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Aww thank, my motivation is mostly pretty low so...
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I'm really looking forward to watching The Faceless Ones animation. I remember enjoying both the surviving episodes and the reconstructed ones when I watched them some years ago. Particularly Samantha Briggs(?) and the female assistant to the airport director. And Jamie and the Doctor are always awesome!
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I’d not seen the surviving ones (lost in time is, I think, the only old who thing I don’t have) so it was all new to me. And yeah! Both were so good. I love Jamie and The doctor so much🖤
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I think one needs to be kind, to each other and definitely to oneself - Annimal Crossing seems like a brilliant, mindfully engaging self care tool for you <3
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That’s very! Yeah it’s perfect although I could do with less eggs (it’s the Easter event and there’s eggs everywhere)